the date is getting closer....i am now officially one month away from meeting this coiled up little "giant" growing in my belly. there isn't a moment in my day that goes by without me asking myself: "how will this go with another person around...?"

i'm savoring every moment of quality time with avery. last night i put him to sleep because matt was at the shop working late. matt puts him to bed almost every night and sings his songs and i get to lay there in bed, envisioning nursing my other baby to sleep. to the gentle singing of their father singing in the next room.

but last night i got to experience the magic that is watching him drifting slowly off to sleep. i got to sing. i love singing. i don't do it enough. i closed my eyes and sang with all my heart. i sang the 4 goodnight songs with all the love i had. silent night, jingle bells, spoon full of sugar, and twinkle twinkle little star. weird choices. i know. you'll have to ask matt about that. these have been the four songs for about 10 months now.

but as i sang twinkle twinkle i just had the urge to kiss him all over his head, his face, his neck. i kissed in between each word and phrase. and i thought to myself, "someday he won't let me do this, perhaps someday very soon...." and just when i felt the tears welling up in my eyes and i reached the last "how i wonder what you are" he whispered softly,

"well, that was a neat way to do it mama."

i think i will be putting him to bed for the rest of the month.


Anne said...
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Anne said...

Totally and completely crying. Oh Ave Dave, that was just about the sweetest thing I have EVER heard.

Natalie Ellen Eamonn said...

made me a giggle. love ya

keo boun pheng said...

what you are going through right now is huge...the transition that ultimately expands each of your hearts to love the new baby. and oh how he will love that baby and you will see him in a whole new light...and all will be NEAT.

Claire said...

ok...that is darling and I totally feel you!!!! So sweet!! Love being a mommy :)

Claire said...

ok...that is darling and I totally feel you!!!! So sweet!! Love being a mommy :)